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chemicaldanger:

ONE YEAR AGO YESTERDAY: The greatest day of my life. 
Sunday 24th October 2010: Manchester o2 Apollo
My Chemical Romance w/ Twin Atlantic 

I remember being on the 5 and a half hour coach journey towards Manchester from Plymouth, reading the latest Kerrang. It had an interview with Frank Iero about what to expect from their first shows in the UK for 4 years. The night before they had already played in London, Hammersmith. But I avoided all tweets and facebook posts from anyone that had seem them, I didn’t want to find out the setlist or anything that happened until I saw it myself. Though whilst reading that interview of Frank’s, I saw him mention that there would be songs from ‘I brought you my bullets, you brought me your love’. Massive excitement whilst being stuck in a coach is hard to contain. 

Eventually i got in Manchester, met with my ex-girlfriend who had come down from Newcastle University, and we started to venture and find the venue. After being lost for around an hour and a half, we started asking the public if they knew where the Apollo was, turns out we’d basically circled the venue 3 times. It’s the latest i’ve ever turned up to a gig, which i wasnt happy about, the que was enormous. Instead of walking to the very end, we sat, freezing cold on the curb next to the que. Hours felt like weeks but we finally got into the venue, after singing along to MCR songs with the rest of the people waiting. 

I remember being so incredibly impatient while Twin Atlantic were playing, and the crowd were also becoming restless. A 10 out of 10 for effort by the Scottish band, but no-one here wanted to watch anymore. A sigh of relief came across the Apollo as Twin Atlantic finally left the stage. It was time for MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE to play.

What i didn’t know, was this was going to be the best night of my life.

I was around the centre, in front of Gerard, 3 or 4 people behind the barrier, enjoying an amazing and intimate gig. The sound was brilliant, the crowd was buzzing, and the stage was close and felt like we were almost onstage with the band…  then it actually happened.

Gerard began talking about the night before, how in London he asked for a fan who knew the lyrics to ‘Honey this mirror isn’t big enough for the two of us’. And how although he knew the words, he would like somebody to help. ‘Who truly knows, the words to ‘Honey this mirror isn’t big enough for the two of us?’ , like a hundred fucking percent?’  At this moment in time, people were screaming with their arms up, I however, was using everyones shoulders around me, to catapult myself higher than everyone else, my arms waving around like a lunatic, screaming ME!!!!  Ray Toro then pointed me out to Gerard, and then i was told… ‘This kid fuckin knows’ 

Being carried over the barrier by the security, and my black and bright pink boxers being so elegantly shown to the entire front row. I was about to climb on stage with my heroes. My idols. The guys who inspired me to play guitar, to be myself no matter what anyone else thinks. The guys who had been there since i had ever first heard ‘Vampires will never hurt you’. 

I was onstage, pure excitement rushed over me, yet it still hadnt sunk in. I immediately went to Gerard and gave him a huge hug. To the utter dismay of the crowd watching. I would be the same, i would wish it was me up there too. For once i was lucky enough to be the one. I turned to Frank Iero, thumbs up to him, and he smiles with a thumbs up too. Gerard starts telling me ‘The Rules’ but ends up telling me, if i ask for a picture i’d be booted. haha. i Had my phone still in camera mode from whilst in the crowd, i had no intention of asking for a photo xD

The music starts and Gerard whispers in my ear something i can’t really remember, for some reason, everyone wants to know what he whispered. I think it was about the intro being long, and that you won’t hear your own voice. lol.  As i’d turned around to face to crowd, i had forgot all about the people there watching. Several thousand people staring at me onstage, i’d never sang in front of people, and i saw the balcony, and i started to shit myself. Then i thought… fuck it. This is a once in a lifetime opportunity, no time to be scared. I’m gonna rock the fuck out!

Fool me however, as i started early, twice. The intro was long, and i was nervous, excited and living my dream with no time for it to sink in. Oops. i laughed it off, and continued on, (this time at the right time) THE AMOUNT OF PILLS I’VE TAKEN…. ect.

I’m singing with Ray Toro’s Mic, which at the moment is on a mic-stand, i wanted to move about the stage desperately, i pulled off the mic, but the cable was twisted around. A crew member quickly comes underneath me, and untangles the cable, and im free! (after seeing videos on youtube i found out it was under Rays orders that he did this haha) 

The 4/5 minutes or so i was up there, went so fast. Like you’d never ever believe. But, i can honestly say it was the happiest 5 minutes of my life. I was tired and breathless after jumping around and singing on stage, and also having spent an hour being crushed in the crowd. 

’well you can cry all you want to i dont, CARE, HOW, MUCH!’. Gerard and my arms interock as we scream in each others faces during those lines. I was singing with my Heroes. They knew i exist, my name. And surely i wouldnt be forgotten! 

The song is over, Gerard: ‘everybody give it up for kieran!’ 
Another hug with Gerard before I leave the stage, and i tell Gerard ’ YOU’RE MY FUCKING HERO’ to which he quickly responds, ‘No, you’re MY hero!’. 

Off the stage i go, my entire body shaking, and whilst going straight to the back for water, Welcome to the black parade starts echoing around. I’m getting high fives and hugs from fans i dont know! I retreat to the venue toilets and ring my mum. tears in my eyes and utter disbelief of what had just happened to me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FlJ9w_vZYxk&feature=channel_video_title

There above, is the link for a High quality video from someone at the front, of everything that happened. 

If you read this, thanks :-)

(Source: chemicalkilljoy)